Gina, my therapist, says things to me all the time that just stick. Things that help to heal my hurts. But this....this is worth celebrating.
For the past few months we’ve been unable to meet in person, through tele-health we’ve tried doing EMDR but I get too distracted at home so we’ve had to get creative with our sessions. For the last two sessions we’ve discussed self-esteem.
I have struggled with it and still do. I have always thought I knew the core of it or where it stemmed from. Since I have still been so unsure, I thought we could dive in!
She had me read a packet of what self-esteem is, what low self-esteem is, the impact of it and the problems of it. In the midst of all that it clearly suggested low self-esteem stemmed from depression and listed the symptoms of it. After finishing reading the symptoms of depression, she interrupted me to say these beautiful and uplifting words...
“From what you read and what you identify with of those symptoms, you don’t seem to me like you are clinically depressed anymore.”
😧
I mean gosh, it was clear as day written on the paper! Of the 8 symptoms I had only circled 3 that I experienced regularaly. And the best (maybe worst) part is... she said those 3 symptoms sound more like ADHD.
So, aside from that new possible diagnosis... is the diagnosis of depression truly in my past? Am I really able to drop the title? Am I free of the chains that held me so close to the name?
Even in recent blog posts, I have written that I didn’t feel like I suffered from depression anymore. I guess I just needed someone to tell me.
🙌🏼
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